Dr. Visit...

So I went to the Dr today... I wasn't expecting much, but hoping that I had dilated at least a little... well, I am 1/2cm bigger than I was last week... woohoo! After talking to my Dr. we both think I won't be "on time" with my delivery, I'm thinking Feb 4 and he is thinking Feb 7, when he'll have to induce me.  Whatever happens, I hope that my body will eventually go into labor all by itself without having to be induced or have to get a c-section. 

The pregnancy so far... some days are worse than others, but most days are good days, I have really lucked out considering pregnancy isn't something that most women want to be.  Yesterday was a bad day... I was having frequent labor pains and they hurt, like a shock of electricity in my lower back and soreness in my groin like I'd been horseback riding for a week straight! And no matter how hard I tried to get comfortable, there just wasn't any use.  I went visiting teaching and didn't get home till about 9pm, so from 9am-9pm I was practically on my feet all day, and it was miserable.

Not to mention this morning at about 2am, I had it with my phone, it was driving me crazy, it was already somewhat broken but still in working condition, but every time I moved in bed the phone disconnected from the cord, came unplugged, or fell on the floor... so what did I do? I threw my phone on the floor out of frustration... and you know what happened? it snapped in half.  I was still able to make calls from memory and talk, but I couldn't see anything on the screen or hear anything.  Jeff was frustrated at me, so I went to go sleep on the couch, but I couldn't get comfortable, and I truly felt like an idiot for throwing my phone, not helping the situation of already feeling frustrated with the entire everything that was happening... pregnancy, hormones, uncomfortableness, stress levels rising, anxiety, etc., etc.  I started crying and couldn't stop... so hard to the point that I couldn't breathe and I started choking.  Jeff came in the living room and hugged me, at first I didn't want him to but he wouldn't let go and kept hugging me tighter until I gave in and hugged him back. If I wasn't prego, he probably would have carried me to bed.  He is a wonderful man and I am so lucky to have him as my husband, he will be a wonderful dad. :)

First thing in the morning I went to the AT&T store, on my way to work, and the stupid store doesn't open till 10am, what store doesn't open till 10???? so I went to the post office instead, mailed off my thank you cards, and then drove back to the store, I waited in the parking lot for about 10 min before the stupid store opened, I couldn't have been more desperate to get into a store than I did this morning!

Luckily I was able to buy a pay as you go phone for $15, something simple and basic for the time being before we really do disconnect one or both of our lines from AT&T... I'm still on the same plan as I was before with my other phone, only now I can't receive or send any multi-media texts...so don't send me any photos or videos via text! thanks.

Tomorrow, Friday Jan 28, 2011 is my last day at work... it will be a sad day in the sense that I will be leaving all my friends, especially Maurina my prego friend, I have been able to tie a close bond with her because we are both pregnant and it has been nice to share stories, experiences, and difficulties in working especially in the line of work we do... on our feet all day busy running around trying to be there for everyone and everything... it is hard! Which is another reason why I am also very happy to be leaving as well! I'll get to take a break for at least a couple days before the kiddo is born! :)

My Dr. asked me today if I was scared, I said, "no, scared isn't really the right word.  I'm anxious and nervous for the labor and delivery part, I know it will hurt, but how much will it hurt, and I'm hoping there aren't any complications... I guess I'm more nervous about the whole "unknown" of it all, since all pregnancies aren't the same for every person!" he agreed with me, it is the unknown that makes it scary, nervous, or rises anxiety levels.  However, once you hold your little one in your arms, all of that goes away! That's what I am excited for!